Good to be bad
I stunk up the joint real bad at the races this weekend.
Which was good.
Because this weekend was about facing my fears.
And for all my hardcore talk, one of my biggest fears is not the treacherous rain slicked corners with mean tire tossing manhole covers, or Cherry Pic'ing teams set to crush the locals...
but the fear of failure.
Especially in public. As these crits so often are.
And I faced my fears, and failed superbly. And survived. Just fine.
I think the 40s are going to be good.
posted by Velo Bella @ 8:45 PM
21 Comments:
i'm glad you had such a successful failure
but i think anyone who finished on saturday was a successful success
You're more man, err woman, err, whatever, you know what I mean, more than moi. You won't see me mixing it up on the pavement, let alone in the rain with a bunch o' crazies. Good job!
40 for me this year too... damn grey hair.
Hey how's that kitchen coming along? :)
you achieved the hardest part about racing - facing fears.
and racing in the rain on the fast road...
i'm with gin; 40 this year and just listening to you critters mix it up on the pavement scares me.
you did good.
40s rule...
and, you didn't fail because in my book failure is not giving it 100% and all of us gave 100% or more this weekend...
uh, what you talking about failing??? hard, hard races, this weekend.
however, linda reminds me to think of the pros when i feel bad about my performance.
poor janny poo getting passed by icky lance in the TT. the whole world watching.
if that can be survived...
No such thing as failing in February.
Showin' up is succeeding in my book.
:-)
first off you didn't fail.
secondly it was great having you there because having teammates ALWAYS makes racing easier even just knowing that they are in theresuffering with you.
thirdly you are only going to get better!
good for you. and good for you for sharing this.
Every time I saw you on Sunday, you were smiling. I think you did great. And I think that it's nearly impossible to really feel successful until you move through the fear of failure. And I should probably listen to my own advice on that front.
...and finally, "Cherry Pic'ing"? Brilliant.
okay...you guys are sweet and all, but quit with the pats on the back. Thats not what this is about.
And I haven't done crap with the kitchen yet. I'm finding it waaay to hard to juggle the team, the training, the racing, the job,and most importantly..the lovins.
And Panda, you hit it on the head.
After struggling just to stay in that 3/4 crit on Saturday I was bummed thinking "I have never ever struggled in a 3/4 crit, even when I was a beginner 4"
But then I remembered that I don't normally enter crits I think I will struggle in (i.e. Cat's Hill, Cherry Pie, Davis) and I always hold back more than I should.
This feels good.
baby steps....
having not even done a road race yet this year, i am surprised at how hard the juggling is already
i can feel i'm doing so good with it all and that it's so worth it one moment and then feel the total opposite the next moment
sigh
time for a snack and back to work
this is going to be a fun weekend
Ja, it's about doing your best swan dive into shark infested waters - that's ani difranco, not me, but i'm in a borrowin' frame of mind. it's about not listening to the scared little girl inside you who wants to hide under the blankies rather than go out and have an adventure or several. it's about finding a little extra courage to dare a little more.
but since i haven't gotten around to renewing my racing license much less finding a start line, i still say there's a whole lotta success in showing up ;-)
I fear failing at times.
I fear being average all the time.
Plus 40ish biker chicks outshine average jane 20somethings by a long shot, I know I love mine.
Let me know if the Vanderbella house needs some handydork work, I'd love to have an excuse to go over that way for a day or 3.
MS
hey sassy, can you build a fence??
Are you Kidding???????
I'm the fence master, kinda.
We can talk about fences on Saturday in the wonderfull Cantua RR
ms
Sassypants
I have enough work at my house that you could call it a Corralitos Training Camp.
An entire kitchen remodel if you are serious...
This weekend, You me Beer and talkin kitchens with Olaf of course.
And just for the record I hear its going to maybe possibly kinda be raining for mondays crit.
Just so ya know
Cherry Pic'ing... I just got it!
i'm so slow.
at least my wit wasn't wasted
And I haven't done crap with the kitchen yet. I'm finding it waaay to hard to juggle the team, the training, the racing, the job,and most importantly..the lovins.
Good - I was thinkin' my invite to the demo party got lost in the mail and I missed out on the fun...
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