So I had a conversation the other night with my favorite person about competitiveness.
It started out by me saying I am not very competitive at races. I am not agressive, I don't think about winning, I don't even do a decent warm up.
But he reminded me that he has seen my competitiveness, and yes, I can be that.
I suppose he took the connotation as negative, but for me, competitiveness has a neutral connotation. There are times when I admire someone's competitive drive, and there are times when perspective gets lost.
In a country driven by greedy capitalistic actions, its no wonder that competitiveness gets a bad rap. There's not a whole lot about competitiveness thats kumbayaish. And the mere definition of the word smacks a little negative:
To strive against another or others to attain a goal
Strive against others. Sort of harsh.
But thats what we all do by racing. And its a damn load of fun. And we show up each week to do it and some even dedicate a considerable amount of our free time trying to encourage others to do it.
So can it be all that bad?
And if I am not competitive, what am I doing showing up each week to races?
Blah blah blah blah...I can't remember exactly where we went with the conversation that night.
But thats because I was mostly just trying to get lucky.